hi, lately i have been having a very worse time with my mother. She has been worrying on my eating and sleeping very much , so much that she had been calling over me every time she could find time after her work done and my father also joined her into it. He called me every hour to check if had food and at night to say good night. my mother she calls me up everyday at 6 in the morning to check if i am not sleeping to check if i am ready for my work. i really could not take up them calling me every time. At last, i told them not to be like that and not to call that i can manage things my own way and myself. i was so angry , i did just almost shouted at them for doing this.
The next day in the morning at 6, i was almost and like always awake but something inside me was different. i was waiting for my mother to call me up to check for me, i waited but no call came. It was 8 but no call. i got worried , changed to fresh clothes and dressed up but no call. The whole day at work, i was thinking ” what has happened today ??” , when i got back home but had no call from any of them till then. At night i was to sleep but got just a message “good night”. i thought , it is fine and better so that i can work freely my own way but something disturbed me. i couldnot sleep.
Again the next day, the same thing happened. i could have no sleep and was left worried. i waited till 8 but no call came. i got up and dressed. At work, i couldnot feel happy and something still disturbed me, i didnot know what, but i couldnot be happy. when i was at home at day, the first thing i did was to call my father and ask what was going there. He just said you has asked not to call and we did that. That was better for me to have a talk with him on it but still i didnot know what had worried me and what disturbed me. After that , the other day, i made a mistake by getting a wrong dress for me and it was a size small. i had to get it back to the shop for return and get other one. i had to wait and called my mother. She answered my call and i was almost more than happy to talk to her. But something strange then happened then when i told her of my mistake. On other day, if i had told her of it, she would have scolded and told me i was not careful of things, i forgot things, couldnot do things properly anytime, always did something wrong, but today, when i told her of my mistake ,all she said was “yes, it happens”. i couldnot say anything !!. i wasnot expecting that !! i ended the call then after some other talks but i was getting to cry almost.
It was then did i realize, what disturbed me, her love, her worry, her words of scolding me, her sweet anger that showed her love for me, then again i realized my father, he loved me the same. i was missing her love , her worry when she called me at 6 in the morning for me, my father’s “good night”, his worry if i had food on time. i was missing them and all that i thought was disturbing and irritating me. And i in return , did nothing but shouted back at them for it. WHAT A FOOL WAS I !!! i called them back and said sorry for what i did and had said but the most that i had never told them, I LOVED THEM ALWAYS AND WOULD ALWAYS.
It was then i came to know my mother had cried the night i had shouted on her. i was very angry on myself for this and asked her and told her she was the one who had every right to shout at me ,scold me , call me and also “disturb me”. i know everyone has this part of life with their parents where they worry and we get irritated and want to things our ways. But dear please dont forget these are the people who have to and worry for us. They love us more than we can think of. even before we are born , they have loved us , worried for us and now just because we grow up and want things our way , we forget their love and get irritated by their love ??? they will always love us, in all ways for all time of their life, ALWAYS.They worry for us because they want us to be happy. They tell us what to do and what not to also when we are at 18 , 22 ,30 and also at 40 just because THEY ARE OUR PARENTS. Any age , anything doesnot matter for them for us. Also at 40, they are our parents and will worry the same way they had worried when we were 1. We at times dont realize their love and want to have a life our own way but dear , CAN YOU EVER FIND A PERSON IN THIS WHOLE WORLD THAT CAN GIVE YOU THE LOVE THAT THEY HAVE FOR YOU ????
NO ONE CAN. no one. please dont do what i did to them. i love them a lot. we all love them a lot but never tell them. WHY ?? GO AHEAD , TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. please do it. Give this happiness to them, just say you love them.Dont wait for father’s day and mother’s day. why wait for a day to tell them how much you love them ???? please do it now. call them and say you love them.we all love them but dont realize it.
Dont allow it to go !!!! please dont. And now for me,i have the same call from my mother at 6 to worry everyday for me, my father’s every time calls to check for my food and for good night. AND ALSO i have the same sweet scolds from my mother the moment she finds i made a mistake and i could give anything in this world to hear them. i love it BECAUSE I LOVE THEM AND CANT THINK OF LIFE WITHOUT THESE SCOLDS FROM MY MOTHER AND A SWEET GOOD NIGHT FROM MY FATHER .